It turns, it yearns for blood; the spitting then the holding,
the cutting
beside the folding, lies set for unbecoming – needs. For she sees,
she
weeps now when she wakes alone, not sad, not glad, no not there, just no
one here & in a kitchen full of chill days, light sliding sideways, the
room
brightening wildly without me & w/out south wide windows gaping wide.
I woke there beside the pour, flailed upon the many nights
of fog &
tepid moors that didn’t run, dreaded heat that sunk deep inside
our bones:
fast batter – oh so much soft layer on layer to form that strange cake
(this is what happens when the air is right): I am tired of wandering, lead
fast batter – oh so much soft layer on layer to form that strange cake
(this is what happens when the air is right): I am tired of wandering, lead
hat on as I seek her, belying her past - I remain the voice behind the veil.
I wish to watch her place my hand in that dicing blended
rain, I desire to
see flesh shear, disintegrate, fracture, crumble into all the
small
words I need to witness for last of me before the cracking of the storm the
words I need to witness for last of me before the cracking of the storm the
falling of the barn, her dorm, the hatred I’ve been warned to
give before.
Not this foolishness she wishes to be – not the better part of me? Shame.
I woke to stand alone, hurt a heart by which to live. Surrendered.
But no, alas: I remain with! Such love - there is a circle of bright between the furrowing my brow at a worry that may never come, I
struggle, shake in the moods that we made, the love that is gone there for someone else to find, wind then, yet it never was truly mine to claim.
I went to look for you in the sky last night, and no
you weren’t there – how I was not surprised, lost dots flying high for
there is no lady rising to greet, no signal that I’ll find, no pause that calls,
each day means so much less than the one before, not colored prayers, no
Not this foolishness she wishes to be – not the better part of me? Shame.
But no, alas: I remain with! Such love - there is a circle of bright between the furrowing my brow at a worry that may never come, I
struggle, shake in the moods that we made, the love that is gone there for someone else to find, wind then, yet it never was truly mine to claim.
you weren’t there – how I was not surprised, lost dots flying high for
there is no lady rising to greet, no signal that I’ll find, no pause that calls,
each day means so much less than the one before, not colored prayers, no
cries between droplets, no time – only a man not worth his dime.
So I shall show you terror - of pure hate on the head of a
pin; I’ll display
teeth that bleed upon the breaking, the hundred thousand
veins giving
way, chemicals that invade beside the music that once we what made
upon that bed was white, then teal, then everything between my brain
waves
giving way. Custard on the mouth side, needing a finger fold.
Dribbling tall along this messy mountain, your sheets cupped
me, tangled
fast as I stumbled up, ran down the far drive, out to where the cragside
could claim me, past where slave owners did twirl and beat me. They?
A shadow that was we, a fractal that can open, seedling be, but…but…
But no – you, like I, we are not ever like that, never
gave up till the needing, sleep beside the sheathing, covered lashes,
not cold, so very chill, lips moving towards remorse:
oh, how my core, my eternal spring then my eyes, my very soul it aches.
Be there now, before it takes me (we? us? gone
now, forever)
gave up till the needing, sleep beside the sheathing, covered lashes,
not cold, so very chill, lips moving towards remorse:
oh, how my core, my eternal spring then my eyes, my very soul it aches.
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